itunes.

Cleaned out my Itunes. I've spent all of six dollars for 750 songs, now six dollars for 600 songs. Confused? It's called free. Being frugal. Etc. Those 150 songs were junk in the trunk. Stuff I don't need infiltrating my mind like some kind of psychedelic mind reading whatever thingie. So yea. Let's keep it positive.

How bored

Can one individual become?? Hardly any work, I've graduated high school, and I'm just waiting for school to begin. How boring is that??

Fear.

Being the age that I am, I am finding it continuously hard to see the big picture for what God has in my life. I feel as if I see it all through blinders ... just seeing what's coming at me from the front, and no time to react to what's coming at me from each side. So in the fear of the unknown, I just feel lost. Like life won't turn out right, and that I'll end up living with my parents for the rest of my life and always being dependent on someone, something. Now don't get me wrong I want more than anything to be happily married, but I need independence from my family, the ones that raised me. And they need their independence just as much as I do.

Two biggest fears.

Fear of never gaining independence.

Fear of never finding my 2nd true love.

I shall never fear my 1st love will abandon me, betray me, hurt me, or tear me down, because he is my savior, God and King. My second love references to a husband no less. I would really like to find him someday.

Why.

Does it only take a few words to totally break down someone?

Dead and Gone.

Sickness is. Good thing because seriously I have better things to worry about. Bigger, deeper things to worry about. But who doesn't? And why do we worry? Well maybe lets just say I'm thinking about some certain things a little more than usual. This is going no where, so I'll add an inspirational quote to save the day,

"today is the tomorrow that we worried about yesterday".

There. Think about it.

So.

The thing about being sick is that you always feel so much better after you get well, remembering just how much you appreciate your health. I can't wait for that day right now. Blehhh.

Cynical.

I feel cynical today. For the past week in fact. I can't seem to pick out anything good, just the bad. It kind of sucks. Just seeing people for what they are wrong for makes me uneasy. Bleh. More to come.